At Last! Nice Weather!

Living in Seattle has its challenges for me.   First there are the stuffy, unfriendly almost reserved to a fault Seattle natives,  Then there is that damn depressing weather!  Around 10 months a year of it.   Living here as long as I have I begin to understand why the majority of people here are so damn sullen.   I am not like these folks, thanks in part to having been raised in California, being able to have traveled all over which helps, but I still do get majorly depressed living here!  Unfortunately I can’t afford to move out of state so I’m working on that.  And no I don’t wish to move back to California because it just isn’t the same California that Mom & I had to flee from all those many years ago.   Nope!  I no longer care for that state.

So, it stands to reason that this time of year?  Which is when spring is almost turning into Summer that I love the most!   The sun is actually OUT!   I can actually see blue sky’s & billowing white clouds!  My favorite since I was a child growing up in California.   I swear sometimes living in the Pacific Northwest I actually do forget what a blue sky & white  clouds even look like!   It’s June and this month its so far free from rain.   Free from grayness.   I’m free to put the shorts on, leave the umbrella at home as well as the jacket & head out the door in summer attire!   I love tropical weather.    I hate: snow, mountains, hiking.   I surely do live in the WRONG state!   I already know that thank you very much.   But it is what it is.   I love sun, sand, palm trees, ocean waves rolling up onto the sand.   I also love TAN people!  And not the paleness of marshmellow bodies that permeate this town.   I hope to one day be able to go on one of those working vacations where I could volunteer on a farm and where the room & board are free.  There are such places & there is a website for places all over the World too.   But I want Hawaii  there its not full of uptight folks who act like their underwear is in a bunch.   I love laid back, warm weather, I work hard & I like to RELAX.  Here where I currently live there isn’t much of that going on with people.   So to cope which I’ve had YEARS of practice with, I just ignore people.   I’ve heard that Los Angeles, New York are bad…..but in my opinion Seattle has got them both beat hands down in the frigid personality department.   I know I live here unfortunately.   Here is how I cope.  Anything that I find with palm trees, sand blue water I frame them and keep them around in my apartment.   I keep tropical plants its a way to make me feel like I’m NOT in the Pacific Northwest.   I love to pretend that I don’t live here.  Its how I cope.  And hey I just can’t stand it here so until I win the sweepstakes or finish school & get a job elsewhere I’m kind of stuck here.  Unfortunately.   Perhaps I’ll be fortunate enough to meet someone who has moved here from out of town?   Until then I’ll enjoy the weather, pretend I don’t live here & seek ANY positive escape any way that I can.   Its called living single in a town you just can’t stand.


Published by: The Lonely Shepard

Me: I grew up in an extremely abusive & disadvantaged family environment were both parents were really immature & their relationship messy! I was abducted by my Father at age 8 abused physically, mentally, degraded by his 2nd Wife, and I didn't see my Mother again until 4 years later, I had to risk my neck + my life to run off to seek help with the local police & this was way before there was any such laws on the books for child abuse. Think on that awhile. Had learning disabilities all throughout school by the time I graduated I learned nothing, was prepared for nothing out in the World. Think on that. Joined the United States Army right out of High School only reason I did join was that at the time there was an Army recruiter right on the High School campus & he took an interest in me. So I joined. I was really in over my head. But what else could I do? I lived with a single Mom who was emotionally unstable & I had ZERO support from anyone including the school staff + administrators. The military was hard & degrading to me as a woman but I got out with an honorable discharge. More about me: A series of dead end jobs, my mind was totally a mess after I got out of the Army, still had no support not even from the Veterans admin. My journey has been a total nightmare of: trying to find out about myself, learning about myself, how to live as an adult, all with no help. Now after long , and intensive filled journey I'm trying to get back on track with my life I want to go to school with the hope of one day attending University. I don't wish my journey on anyone. No one gave me guidance: as a child as a teen as a young adult I was all on my own! and it was real lonely , isolating, extremely frightening. Family? don't really have any. Now remember everyone I'm African American & I receive little to no respect I don't even warrant a speeding car that will slow down. "The person who sang the National Anthem sang the last note so high that no could reach it! That was intentional!" Belize from Tony Kushners play Angels In America. If you've read this far I will leave my email in case you want to leave me a msg. Those that are rude will get deleted immediately. Contact:

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