Racial Slurs, Being Bullied, Verbal Abuse, This Is Not How I Wanted My Life To Be.

Everyone, you definitely need to please pay attention to how you treat other people.  I feel this needs to be said because all too often the perpetrators are just way too callous.  One of the reasons I hate 21st Century America is because now days rudeness seems to be priority one.  Its a mentality of lets hurt someone else.   What we have today are people getting killed by guns, among  other violence like physical, sexual assaults but whats often overlooked are the VERBAL assaults.

It’s gotten very out of hand!  I mean its real bad.   Take it from me who has been on the receiving end of severe bullying to have included getting several racial slurs as well as death threats screamed at me while on a public bus 3 years ago and nothing was done.   Begin by treating each other with kindness instead of tormenting one another.   I just don’t understand society at large, here I came from a very abusive family, was taken away from my Mother when I was 8 years old, witnessed all sorts of violence to include that done to my own Mother, and had such vile verbal assaults done to me by my Mother, former Stepmother, Stepfather, my Father (who was guilty of pure neglect) ….and I seem to have a better handle at how to treat another human being than most of you out there.   Today I just can’t stand this century where narcissistic attitudes & being rude seem commonplace.   Things sure have gotten worse not better.  Sometimes I feel like I’m on an alien planet.


Published by: The Lonely Shepard

Me: I grew up in an extremely abusive & disadvantaged family environment were both parents were really immature & their relationship messy! I was abducted by my Father at age 8 abused physically, mentally, degraded by his 2nd Wife, and I didn't see my Mother again until 4 years later, I had to risk my neck + my life to run off to seek help with the local police & this was way before there was any such laws on the books for child abuse. Think on that awhile. Had learning disabilities all throughout school by the time I graduated I learned nothing, was prepared for nothing out in the World. Think on that. Joined the United States Army right out of High School only reason I did join was that at the time there was an Army recruiter right on the High School campus & he took an interest in me. So I joined. I was really in over my head. But what else could I do? I lived with a single Mom who was emotionally unstable & I had ZERO support from anyone including the school staff + administrators. The military was hard & degrading to me as a woman but I got out with an honorable discharge. More about me: A series of dead end jobs, my mind was totally a mess after I got out of the Army, still had no support not even from the Veterans admin. My journey has been a total nightmare of: trying to find out about myself, learning about myself, how to live as an adult, all with no help. Now after long , and intensive filled journey I'm trying to get back on track with my life I want to go to school with the hope of one day attending University. I don't wish my journey on anyone. No one gave me guidance: as a child as a teen as a young adult I was all on my own! and it was real lonely , isolating, extremely frightening. Family? don't really have any. Now remember everyone I'm African American & I receive little to no respect I don't even warrant a speeding car that will slow down. "The person who sang the National Anthem sang the last note so high that no could reach it! That was intentional!" Belize from Tony Kushners play Angels In America. If you've read this far I will leave my email in case you want to leave me a msg. Those that are rude will get deleted immediately. Contact: Yogibeara425@hushmail.com

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