Trying To Constantly Figure Things Out Gives Me A Headache!

I must figure out a way to handle a landlord tenant dispute as to how to get my rent check to the landlord of my apartment so that it doesn’t mysteriously disappear…no one will help me, so I must contact the Tenants Union Of Washington which thank the lord I just came up with on my own.

See I have no one to help me problem solve.  If I don’t come up with any problem solving solutions than I’m screwed.

Trying to figure out how to apply to school cause I just have no idea how to do that which is why I never went to a post secondary school.  I had no one to help me.  In high school no counselor talked to me….so I end up going from one dead end job to another for years.

Searching for a therapist to help me sort through all this mess that is my life.

Now remember, I’m special needs, I’m a broken mess of a person who has to re-raise myself, get rid of all this toxic poison learned from sick people I grew up with my whole life.

I’m at times with headaches.

Can you imagine if I had kids?  OH LORD!

And this list isn’t all inclusive.  I’m just giving you a sample of what I must do, problem solve on a daily basis where I don’t get a break.  A non stop 24/7 task of what my next move will be.  I always feel so exhausted.

Tomorrow I will try to get to Church.  Oh how I’m not up to going.  Thank goodness its a casual dress code?  I sure hope so. 

I’ve had a horrible week!  Don’t have anyone to run to for comfort that’s for sure.

Stay tuned.  Hopefully all this stuff I have on my plate won’t have an effect on my health




Published by: The Lonely Shepard

Me: I grew up in an extremely abusive & disadvantaged family environment were both parents were really immature & their relationship messy! I was abducted by my Father at age 8 abused physically, mentally, degraded by his 2nd Wife, and I didn't see my Mother again until 4 years later, I had to risk my neck + my life to run off to seek help with the local police & this was way before there was any such laws on the books for child abuse. Think on that awhile. Had learning disabilities all throughout school by the time I graduated I learned nothing, was prepared for nothing out in the World. Think on that. Joined the United States Army right out of High School only reason I did join was that at the time there was an Army recruiter right on the High School campus & he took an interest in me. So I joined. I was really in over my head. But what else could I do? I lived with a single Mom who was emotionally unstable & I had ZERO support from anyone including the school staff + administrators. The military was hard & degrading to me as a woman but I got out with an honorable discharge. More about me: A series of dead end jobs, my mind was totally a mess after I got out of the Army, still had no support not even from the Veterans admin. My journey has been a total nightmare of: trying to find out about myself, learning about myself, how to live as an adult, all with no help. Now after long , and intensive filled journey I'm trying to get back on track with my life I want to go to school with the hope of one day attending University. I don't wish my journey on anyone. No one gave me guidance: as a child as a teen as a young adult I was all on my own! and it was real lonely , isolating, extremely frightening. Family? don't really have any. Now remember everyone I'm African American & I receive little to no respect I don't even warrant a speeding car that will slow down. "The person who sang the National Anthem sang the last note so high that no could reach it! That was intentional!" Belize from Tony Kushners play Angels In America. If you've read this far I will leave my email in case you want to leave me a msg. Those that are rude will get deleted immediately. Contact:

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