Currently I’m staying at a shelter.    However its a good one, meaning that its a non profit, located out in the suburbs & some real nice people who sit on the board fund this place.    I can’t tell you the name cause of confidentiality but what I can tell you is that its a 21 bed place where I get my own cubicle with a twin bed (that’s not real comfortable but I can sleep on it)  and there are rules like make your bed each morning etc.   You have to sign up for a shower, doing your laundry.

It’s not bad really.

I must share with you all out there reading that I just had to leave that former apartment!  I sensed REALLY NEGATIVE energy coming from that place!   It’s probably why I would always be so down & depressed!   I strongly believe in negative energy in an apartment.   Add to that negative neighbors with that neighbors friends resembling meth heads & its time for your truly to get  out! 

Oooh the things you put up with as a renter!

You all who are homeowners?  Your truly blessed!  Renting is pure hell!   Take it from me.

I just want to live in peace you all.   I want to enjoy my TV program without getting scared out of my skin.

It took me forever to even learn to live alone & now that I have …well then there is something else to deal with.

What was it that Charlie Brown always said?  GOOD GRIEF!  

Now I know I ain’t perfect I have flaws of course but the level of insane folks living right next door is just unbearable sometimes.

I’m of the old school belief that neighbors should be seen & not heard.

“hello”  “how are you”   that’s all I’m capable of.

So now I’m in between apartments and I don’t mind much.  

I’m just grateful that I’m in here cause this place isn’t easy to get into.

Waitlist!  Homelessness is on the rise my friends & at an alarming rate.

And did I mention I’m in the suburbs.   Oh yes I’m in a shelter located at the rear of a Church in an affluent neighborhood.

It’s kind of like when I read in the paper about HUD housing in Beverly Hills California!

You heard right everyone, and you probably heard it here first?   IDK

I read that above the Whole Foods market in Beverly Hills California sits  some HUD (Housing Urban Development) apartments for elderly & maybe disabled 55+.   HUD apts are for low income tenants.  And how lucky are these tenents to live there!  B.H. has real minimal crime, best Police & Fire depts.  if you can only get around the fact that your smack dab right in the middle of one of Californias richest zip codes then you’ll be fine.

Is this a great country or what? 😦


Published by: The Lonely Shepard

Me: I grew up in an extremely abusive & disadvantaged family environment were both parents were really immature & their relationship messy! I was abducted by my Father at age 8 abused physically, mentally, degraded by his 2nd Wife, and I didn't see my Mother again until 4 years later, I had to risk my neck + my life to run off to seek help with the local police & this was way before there was any such laws on the books for child abuse. Think on that awhile. Had learning disabilities all throughout school by the time I graduated I learned nothing, was prepared for nothing out in the World. Think on that. Joined the United States Army right out of High School only reason I did join was that at the time there was an Army recruiter right on the High School campus & he took an interest in me. So I joined. I was really in over my head. But what else could I do? I lived with a single Mom who was emotionally unstable & I had ZERO support from anyone including the school staff + administrators. The military was hard & degrading to me as a woman but I got out with an honorable discharge. More about me: A series of dead end jobs, my mind was totally a mess after I got out of the Army, still had no support not even from the Veterans admin. My journey has been a total nightmare of: trying to find out about myself, learning about myself, how to live as an adult, all with no help. Now after long , and intensive filled journey I'm trying to get back on track with my life I want to go to school with the hope of one day attending University. I don't wish my journey on anyone. No one gave me guidance: as a child as a teen as a young adult I was all on my own! and it was real lonely , isolating, extremely frightening. Family? don't really have any. Now remember everyone I'm African American & I receive little to no respect I don't even warrant a speeding car that will slow down. "The person who sang the National Anthem sang the last note so high that no could reach it! That was intentional!" Belize from Tony Kushners play Angels In America. If you've read this far I will leave my email in case you want to leave me a msg. Those that are rude will get deleted immediately. Contact: Yogibeara425@hushmail.com

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