I’m at the local library taking advantage of the Wi Fi that’s offered here.
It’s the only highlight of my day it seems.
I don’t have cable & for good reason its expensive, can’t afford it, all of what’s broadcast on the networks & cable channels is pure shit! So I spend time at the library . I’m bitter today, not a happy camper. I’m angry. Angry at the World. So I come to the library, order up something on Amazon.com to arrive in a few days & I guess hope for the best. Not much luck with the search with mental health, the low cost ones tell me “Sorry nothing’s available”. So I’m saving something here & something there so I can go to at least sessions to start with then do the best that I can to pay. I don’t have much! I often feel short changed in life. I always feel this way. Seems like when I was coming up no one wanted to be bothered with helping me on anything, whether it was with school, growing up…..just nothing, nada, zip! Now I seem to notice there are all kinds of help for youngsters who had the exact same problems I had but when I was young it was MY PROBLEM & NO ONE WANTED TO GET INVOLVED! Life sure is a cruel BITCH!
Crazy Mother, no Father, no siblings, no friends. I’m sure sinking fast on this boat aren’t I ? The Seattle Seahawks are playing tonight its all anyone is talking about. As for me? I really could care less! I’m in pain.
I feel adrift in a sea of hopelessness!