Red Lobster , A Biker Chick , Just another day of dealing (yet again) with ignorance

Know what I get tired of hearing from the LGBT community?  I get tired of how THEY compare their hate with what African Americans go through.   Sorry to inform you , it just isn’t the same.   Plus the LGBT community is not the warmest community I know.

I’ve been hated on i.e. treated with disdain, been on the receiving end of bigotry, racial slurs, in addition to being treated disrespectfully as a woman since I was 9 or 10 years old.   If anyone reading this wants to know why so many women especially women of color suffer from low self esteem?  Then just sit down & talk to her, because trust me when I say that the woman who shares her story with you?  Will have one horrendous experience to tell you after another of being treated just like a piece of meat!  

Another form of dehumanization is the hate another African American has for another.   Why?   No idea.   Example I’m in a Red Lobster restaurant with my Mother, where we decide to get our meals to go.   For some stupid reason customers must order From the bar a section of the restaurant that I hate to go into.   So Mom & I go into the bar to place our orders & we wait, and wait.    Mom who is elderly & has several physical body pains is visibly uncomfortable sitting in those hard ass bar stool chairs where you need a damn step latter to get into.    While we wait a couple were waiting right across from us over at the bar, Mom & I were sitting at one of the tables.   It’s then I notice that the lady is giving me a real HARD HATING STARE!   Why?  no idea except I notice that she is wearing a hoody just like her husband is wearing.     Knights biker club.

On the hoodies it said Oakland Ca.   I must say that since I live in Washington and these two out of towners  are mean mugging me I feel that they were out of line.    I now understand why people from California are despised so much.    I’ve since joined that club.   Also for those of you who are unfamiliar with the Oakland area?   It’s dangerous.   Trust me its a city I won’t ever visit.    However people from Oakland when you leave your neck of the woods please don’t bring your hostile attitude with you.   Your issues are your issues don’t put them upon me, I sure didn’t need that ignorant woman’s bigoted attitude.    I’m African American.    I have no choice in how my skin turned out when I was born its DNA ladies & Gentlemen!   My Mother is White, if that’s a problem for you?   Too damn bad!   I must say that I don’t particularly like bikers.    I could understand if it were say the Hells Angels  they pretty much hate everybody that’s not in their gang or affiliated they have a reputation of being mean.    I already know that.   But an African American biker gang?   Giving me a disrespectful stare in my neighborhood & they’re from out of town?   Are you guys brain damaged?

Racism & stereotypes from both black & white, I get disrespected no matter where I go!   Even in the hospital when I check in for mental health issues.

Because when you’ve endured:

Racial slurs

Demeaning horrendous disparaging remarks about your gender

Total disrespect

Your intelligence is constantly questioned

Your hated ON SIGHT!

Then your mental health is ALWAYS in danger of deteriorating

From the diary of a black woman navigating life’s difficult roads alone.

Until next time folks!


Published by: The Lonely Shepard

Me: I grew up in an extremely abusive & disadvantaged family environment were both parents were really immature & their relationship messy! I was abducted by my Father at age 8 abused physically, mentally, degraded by his 2nd Wife, and I didn't see my Mother again until 4 years later, I had to risk my neck + my life to run off to seek help with the local police & this was way before there was any such laws on the books for child abuse. Think on that awhile. Had learning disabilities all throughout school by the time I graduated I learned nothing, was prepared for nothing out in the World. Think on that. Joined the United States Army right out of High School only reason I did join was that at the time there was an Army recruiter right on the High School campus & he took an interest in me. So I joined. I was really in over my head. But what else could I do? I lived with a single Mom who was emotionally unstable & I had ZERO support from anyone including the school staff + administrators. The military was hard & degrading to me as a woman but I got out with an honorable discharge. More about me: A series of dead end jobs, my mind was totally a mess after I got out of the Army, still had no support not even from the Veterans admin. My journey has been a total nightmare of: trying to find out about myself, learning about myself, how to live as an adult, all with no help. Now after long , and intensive filled journey I'm trying to get back on track with my life I want to go to school with the hope of one day attending University. I don't wish my journey on anyone. No one gave me guidance: as a child as a teen as a young adult I was all on my own! and it was real lonely , isolating, extremely frightening. Family? don't really have any. Now remember everyone I'm African American & I receive little to no respect I don't even warrant a speeding car that will slow down. "The person who sang the National Anthem sang the last note so high that no could reach it! That was intentional!" Belize from Tony Kushners play Angels In America. If you've read this far I will leave my email in case you want to leave me a msg. Those that are rude will get deleted immediately. Contact:

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