In The U.S. people of color get the shaft…read on

Here in the U.S if your a person of color, any nationality other than white? You’ve really got to fight for your rights on EVERYTHING!
The main one we’ve got to take a firm stand?
Unless one is born into a family of status i.e. you had parents who were educated, joined the right kinds of clubs, basically…PRIVILEGE, people of color have got such an uphill battle to fight just to live any kind of decent life, because quite honestly? No one cares. It’s the truth.
Instituitional racism exists in the public school systems nationwide.
And pretty much everywhere else.
These issues came up to the surface for me on the eve of meeting with my vocational rehabilitation counselor.
For the State that I live in.
For me? This & the other appointments that will follow is very important.
I feel that, I need to go into this meeting KNOWING which direction to go to, which goals etc.
I certainly DO NOT put this into the hands of the social worker with whom I will assume could care less.
I don’t trust people who work for the State, the courts (boy did the court system screw both my Mother & I during the child custody years when I was a child, but thats a whole other blog 😦 )
What I’m trying to express here is that I guess I don’t want to be manipulated by someone into thinking that I am LESS THAN!
I will NOT apply for any more menial jobs.
I want a CAREER, that pays a livable wage
I don’t wish to end up like my Step brother and here is what had happened to him.
My Stepbrother whom I’ll call “Craig” (not real name) was a young man who had moved
to Washington State from California.
He applied to Job Corp, which was a good decision. However, he ended up becoming a Certified Nursing Assistant, which I felt was a bit unusual choice for a young man. For those of you who don’t know the duties of a C.N.A. ….well it isn’t real great job in my opinion.
To spare you what its actually entailed I suggest you look it up for yourself online.
I felt that Craig got steered into this job, because of racial bias.
This C.N.A. job is a menial job, very stressful, and pays terrible.
What I think may have happened was that my Stepbrother had no clue what he wanted to study through job corp. He was a former gang member thus to sum it up? Discrimination from whoever was in charge of his case.
Hey people, it does happen, I ain’t stupid this goes on all the time.
My Step brother I feel got the major shaft, I’m real sure that the person handling my Step brothers case just didn’t care.
As for me? I’ve been online doing nothing but research all week. I had to really sit & THINK about what it is I would like to do & actually get paid for doing that.
This was easier said than done.
I first had to go over & over in my mind things I LIKE to do. I then had to cross reference that with what I could do in the real World.
This was difficult.
Good news is I have what I feel is basically a good direction on what I’d like to do.
Now the next step is to prepare. Which for me means taking Math courses I was always pretty good at it, unfortunately I was always told I was less than intelligent at it by a variety of people.
Food for thought everyone? Albert Einstein actually DID struggle in math!
So there you have it.
When I go to my appointment with the Dept Of Vocational Rehab counselor I need to be confident & be alert for any kind of manipulative conversation steering me in a direction where I don’t want to go.
I’ve found a pattern.
And that pattern is, that throughout MUCH of my life the various people really don’t bother to look below the surface. I mean come on everyone, you all just can’t judge a book by its cover, you all would be surprised that the majority of people out in this World do just that:
Dysfunctional family members
Social Workers
The list goes on & on.
People of color in this World especially in the U.S. have to work 10 times harder to get anything!
NOTHING is ever fair in the World either.
This is something that I never forget.
I guess the one blessing is that I have such a tremendous inner strength, but at times I do get frustrated & exhausted..mentally.
And the fight goes on!


Published by: The Lonely Shepard

Me: I grew up in an extremely abusive & disadvantaged family environment were both parents were really immature & their relationship messy! I was abducted by my Father at age 8 abused physically, mentally, degraded by his 2nd Wife, and I didn't see my Mother again until 4 years later, I had to risk my neck + my life to run off to seek help with the local police & this was way before there was any such laws on the books for child abuse. Think on that awhile. Had learning disabilities all throughout school by the time I graduated I learned nothing, was prepared for nothing out in the World. Think on that. Joined the United States Army right out of High School only reason I did join was that at the time there was an Army recruiter right on the High School campus & he took an interest in me. So I joined. I was really in over my head. But what else could I do? I lived with a single Mom who was emotionally unstable & I had ZERO support from anyone including the school staff + administrators. The military was hard & degrading to me as a woman but I got out with an honorable discharge. More about me: A series of dead end jobs, my mind was totally a mess after I got out of the Army, still had no support not even from the Veterans admin. My journey has been a total nightmare of: trying to find out about myself, learning about myself, how to live as an adult, all with no help. Now after long , and intensive filled journey I'm trying to get back on track with my life I want to go to school with the hope of one day attending University. I don't wish my journey on anyone. No one gave me guidance: as a child as a teen as a young adult I was all on my own! and it was real lonely , isolating, extremely frightening. Family? don't really have any. Now remember everyone I'm African American & I receive little to no respect I don't even warrant a speeding car that will slow down. "The person who sang the National Anthem sang the last note so high that no could reach it! That was intentional!" Belize from Tony Kushners play Angels In America. If you've read this far I will leave my email in case you want to leave me a msg. Those that are rude will get deleted immediately. Contact:

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