When Your Relatives Don’t Like You

Basically, just write them off & move on with your life. Sure it hurts like Hell! I’m sure I’m not alone. Some relatives whether your blood related, or related by marriage to me its the same especially when you’ve known the relatives for decades, one needs to just act like they never existed.
Get the bitter feelings out of your system & just do your best to forget those stupid idiots that seem so selfish & full of hate and make a good life for yourself.
Despite my enormous inner strength even I had a very hard time with this particular issue.
I have my faith that carries me through.
For me, I don’t have anyone really. I’m trying to research & build a life from the ground up! And that ain’t easy everyone. I’ve lost friends which is okay by me cause these so called friends really weren’t. As a result I’ve made a huge overall of my life. What I thought was once important the be all end all, really wasn’t worth anything at all.
For perhaps the first time in my life I realize the true colors of people. And for me I’d rather be alone than to be with person(s) who are of a poor caliber, because I know in my heart that I truly deserve so much better.
Hey everyone, it’s the reason I never married. Marrying some person who is of a very poor caliber just isn’t an option. I don’t settle with just anybody. I was smart wouldn’t you say?
I’m all about developing into a deeply spiritual person.
Cause there isn’t anything pretentious or phony about me.


Published by: The Lonely Shepard

Me: I grew up in an extremely abusive & disadvantaged family environment were both parents were really immature & their relationship messy! I was abducted by my Father at age 8 abused physically, mentally, degraded by his 2nd Wife, and I didn't see my Mother again until 4 years later, I had to risk my neck + my life to run off to seek help with the local police & this was way before there was any such laws on the books for child abuse. Think on that awhile. Had learning disabilities all throughout school by the time I graduated I learned nothing, was prepared for nothing out in the World. Think on that. Joined the United States Army right out of High School only reason I did join was that at the time there was an Army recruiter right on the High School campus & he took an interest in me. So I joined. I was really in over my head. But what else could I do? I lived with a single Mom who was emotionally unstable & I had ZERO support from anyone including the school staff + administrators. The military was hard & degrading to me as a woman but I got out with an honorable discharge. More about me: A series of dead end jobs, my mind was totally a mess after I got out of the Army, still had no support not even from the Veterans admin. My journey has been a total nightmare of: trying to find out about myself, learning about myself, how to live as an adult, all with no help. Now after long , and intensive filled journey I'm trying to get back on track with my life I want to go to school with the hope of one day attending University. I don't wish my journey on anyone. No one gave me guidance: as a child as a teen as a young adult I was all on my own! and it was real lonely , isolating, extremely frightening. Family? don't really have any. Now remember everyone I'm African American & I receive little to no respect I don't even warrant a speeding car that will slow down. "The person who sang the National Anthem sang the last note so high that no could reach it! That was intentional!" Belize from Tony Kushners play Angels In America. If you've read this far I will leave my email in case you want to leave me a msg. Those that are rude will get deleted immediately. Contact: Yogibeara425@hushmail.com

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