I had a great day spending it with my Mother. That is not to say that some very painful memories didn’t spring up in my mind. It did. I also thought of my Father. He’s been dead going on 9 years. He was a self centered man child but I still miss him, for he was my Father. I went to Church. I like this Church. Since all I’ve experienced was alienation I had to go somewhere. And a whole lot has changed for me. I no longer like the same people. I’m WAY more selective about people in my life. I’m still single, I have but one friend, the lady I house sit for every week while she is out of town, but it’s progress. That’s something.
The World as a whole just depresses me. The U.S. is depressing. I am grateful for still having my Mother around because it was no small feet! If you’ve been following my blogs you know what I mean.
Today wasn’t real fancy, but I had to get a bit creative or at least I thought so.
I went to Church, I liked it.
After Church I went to meet my Mother up the street at the local Denny’s restaurant. My Mother is elderly. And as most of you know that with being elderly for some comes with it problems with chronic pain, arthritis. She can’t really drive so she has to rely on paratransit. I’m poor & don’t own a car. She can’t walk real far too.
So meeting her at the restaurant was the best I could think of.
I also rented a room at a hotel right next door using my hotel discount card & expedia . I live in an apartment that I’ve yet to furnish. I’m kind of like that guy from the ’90’s’ movie ‘Heat’ that starred Robert De Niro, in a scene his buddy had asked him when he was going to get some furniture for his beach house on the ocean ( all I have is a one bdrm apt).
Robert De Niro answers flatly with the following: “When I feel like it”. lol.
So with nothing but a bed I am staying overnight in a nice hotel in the Podunk town of Auburn Wa. Near where I attend Church.
The room is GREAT!
Once Mom & I got up to my room after check in we both went to sleep. The room has 2 queen sized beds its huge, I want to move in here.
Despite the wonderful time I’m having, I still have and feel the pain of Family alienation from the other relatives.
New wounds seem to have opened up for me when my Mother spoke to my Cousin who lives in Nevada.
The Cousin had let slip that she would be flying up to Washington State for a visit. BUT no sooner had she mentioned this, the Cousin tried to retract what she had said. See this Family never shares anything that they do , in an effort to lock Mom & I OUT!
Mom & I have always been looked down upon.
Anyone else out there experience this?
There is no end to the haters