Just A Piece Of Paper How About You All Treat Each Other Better

Gay Marriage.
Thats nice.
Now how about the REAL issues, like racism in the LGBTQ, backstabbing, snobbishness, stuck up-ness, and all the other negatives. That’s the real issue.
How about this for news piece?
A young attractive black woman is showing proof of ID at a gay club, a mens club, she is with her male friends & the White guy refuses her entry. That was me.
I’m harassed at a womens bar when all I’m doing is trying to play pool. No one is using the pool table at all. But the minute I get to the table oh, a White woman tries to bully me even going so far as to start a fight with me.
I could go on & on, gay marriage to me just isn’t all that important. Because being an ethnic minority I’m treated like a minority among the minorities! There’s no real victory here.
In fact I’m abandoning anything same sex…possibly forever and just remain single. I am hoping to make some good QUALITY friendships.
But I’m sick to death of hearing about gay marriage.
Right now, I’m focusing on working on a two year degree in aviation then move back South with the lady I house sit for in a couple of years.
I can’t wait.
It’s why I avoid with a passion any news, it’s either violent, or some P.R. about a bunch of narcissistic group of people who always want attention about one thing or another.
There’s homelessness, affordable housing is at a new all time low, you’ve got young kids sleeping in the streets, senior elderly sleeping in their cars.
The gay marriage thing places real  low on my list of priorities to be concerned about.   After 20 years of that lifestyle, I have nothing but contempt.  The experiances just were not worth it for me.   How nice everyone is happy, crying and all that.   For me theres no victory.   It’s why I’m abandoning that lifestyle to pursue a single one.   My self esteem since then has had a tremendous boost.
And anyway just like with the heterosexuals its just a piece of paper.   One thing is for sure the divorce rate will surely triple that of the straight people.

Gender Neutral Bathrooms…Purely Stupid.

I’m female and the last thing I want to see in a public bathroom is a male.   Are you kidding me?   Here in Seattle Mayor Ed Murray is going to institute this inane idea.

My reasons for debating this idea?  Men are perverts!  Men have poor aim, they leave the damn seat up!  And last but surely not least, I just don’t want a gender neutral bathroom, what a perverted idea!  Now a transgender as long as they are nipped I don’t have an issue with.  Not a drag queen but a fully operated male to female.    Another reason I hate it is the fear of being sexually assaulted.    This Country is so on a moral decline.   This Mayor has some funny ideas.   He should stick to policy & not public restroom issues.   Don’t agree with me? I don’t give a damn.   I won’t compromise on my principals to “fit in” to this set of amoral dictates.  And that’s my two cents worth.  

Not All Fathers Are Good.

I tried to go to Church.   Unfortunately it was on Fathers Day.  I say this because I kept hearing just how much all of us should appreciate Dad.   I grew irate.  Not angry but irate.  Here’s why.

My Father blew into my life like one of those tumble weeds in a bad western one day while I was at recess announcing “Hi I’m your Dad”.   I was seven years old, my parents split when I was 2 years old.   My Mothers new Husband was whom I called Daddy.   My biological Father caused both my Mother & I lots of grief.   The custody battle was real NASTY!  And I was right smack dab in the middle.  My so called Father just didn’t care about emotional scars, the trauma he put me & Mother through he just wanted me much like a farmer who wants to buy a prize pig.   That’s how I see it.   If he had any love for me he sure wouldn’t have treated me like a prison inmate.   So after all the drama subsided from the child custody I stayed with that odious man who was my biological Father & his cruella Wife for fours years age 8-12 years of age.   I was never allowed nor was it ever suggested I contact my Mother.   In fact whenever I tried to contact my Mother I was physically subdued or a lock was placed onto the only phone in the house.    On the only occasion I did get through to my Mother she came right over & knocked on the door.  I wanted to see my Mother.   What did dear old Dad do?  He physically restrained me on the bed not allowing me to see my Mother.     Now I don’t expect anyone to even have an inkling of understanding about how I feel about my Father.   He is dead.   Hopefully he has enough sun screen because in my mind he deserves to spend eternity in the after life of everlasting flames.     Thanks Dad for all the pain, trauma, psychological scars you’ve caused me & Mom.   So glad I had the guts to run away & not get caught by you.    I did in fact get reunited with Mother 4 years later so I did get someone’s attention, got someone who gave a damn.   Messege to you parents out there?  Work your shit out & quit putting your kids in the middle.   Trust me when I say that when you act selfishly your fucking up your kids for life.

I’m Sharp When It Comes To Sizing Up Most People.

Lets talk about these therapists shall we.  Or should I say my very bad experiances with these licensed social workers who now a days double as mental health counselors.    For which I feel they are inadequately unqualified, but that’s just me. 

Before I was paired up with a good psychologist   at  the Veterans Admin here, I had seen a bunch of counselors.    I’ll focus on a recent one who worked at a mental health facility where under its umbrella had a veterans affairs section.   The lady I was paired up with was a licensed social worker which supposedly meant that  she was qualified?  to do mental health counseling?  To me I would say NO on that one.   To me only a educated trained psychologist can adequately get to the root of anyones issues especially when one comes from a history of violence & chaos.

This particular lady I had seen (the licensed social wrker)  seemed out of touch, in other words?  Clueless about anyone who comes from such a horrific background such as mine.   Example?  When asked about my high school years, I said to her that I was involved in sports & that I had 3 really good friends i.e. my friends came from really good 2 parent homes, they had a nice house, the household was stable, and everything was good.   The licensed social worker was like “Really”?  I’m surprised that you even had friends”.     Talk about an inappropriate statement!  coming from this skank!   Talk about inappropriate not to mention IGNORANT but this is what you can sometimes expect from SOME so called counselors who don’t deserve that title or ranking.    In short I discontinued seeing her.   She was stupid.   Plain & simple.  Not to mention I feel that she was somewhat biased & not real well informed, nor insightful on people such as myself who have dealt with the sort of trauma I’ve seen & experienced.   To be continued, wordpress is acting wonky.