Hello I’m back.   still struggling and baby it’s difficult.  but that isn’t the reason I’m writing this blog today. 

today I want to write about lottery.  what comes to your mind when you think of a “lottery”   most of you might answer money, and you really wouldn’t be too far off in thinking that.   However the types of lottery I’m really talking about are lotteries for :

affordable housing

gaining entry into a coveted spot into a quality top flight educational charter


for those of you out there who might not know what a charter school is I will do my best to explain what it is.   a charter school simply put is a much better quality education for your children than whatever the public school system offers.  it means that a charter isn’t mandated to follow bureaucratic rules over how to teach kids, charter schools don’t have unionized teachers because in the public school system it seems that all those teachers care about is their contract & trying to fire an incompetent teacher?  your more likely to get the musician Prince to rise up from the grave.    The  teaching in a charter school is above par kids lucky enough to get into one of these schools are given a quality education with a guaranteed pipeline straight into a University I think it’s something like 90% which I can say no public school can match those type of statistics, and to better demonstrate more of what I’m talking about I recommend two documentaries:

1. waiting for superman

2. the lottery

both excellent documentaries which explain the educational crisis in the U.S    I should know I am a product of the public school system & I graduated with a 5th grade math level, couldn’t put together a complete sentence and  I was ill prepared to face the real world at 18 years of age.   I was 18 going on 10 emotionally.

another lottery is affordable housing.  are any of you familiar with what that is.  well basically people on a real low income like social security can’t afford real high rent so there is something called subsidized housing which the low income person pays a small portion of their rent & the local housing authority pays the difference.   People on social security get on it for a variety of reasons to include mental health issues among others.  Now to get on this type of housing one must apply, then there is an electronic lottery to then get on a waitlist.    I’m lucky I have subsidized housing but I don’t want to be on this forever.   I hope to one day

possibly study to be an engineer I have a University all picked out.   but it seems so sad to me that in what is supposed to be the greatest country is now the poorest .  a person has to put their fate into a lottery especially if the person is poor.  this was what was going through my mind after watching the lottery documentary. 

welcome to president trumps country.  at least Hilary cared about women & their futures.




Published by: The Lonely Shepard

Me: I grew up in an extremely abusive & disadvantaged family environment were both parents were really immature & their relationship messy! I was abducted by my Father at age 8 abused physically, mentally, degraded by his 2nd Wife, and I didn't see my Mother again until 4 years later, I had to risk my neck + my life to run off to seek help with the local police & this was way before there was any such laws on the books for child abuse. Think on that awhile. Had learning disabilities all throughout school by the time I graduated I learned nothing, was prepared for nothing out in the World. Think on that. Joined the United States Army right out of High School only reason I did join was that at the time there was an Army recruiter right on the High School campus & he took an interest in me. So I joined. I was really in over my head. But what else could I do? I lived with a single Mom who was emotionally unstable & I had ZERO support from anyone including the school staff + administrators. The military was hard & degrading to me as a woman but I got out with an honorable discharge. More about me: A series of dead end jobs, my mind was totally a mess after I got out of the Army, still had no support not even from the Veterans admin. My journey has been a total nightmare of: trying to find out about myself, learning about myself, how to live as an adult, all with no help. Now after long , and intensive filled journey I'm trying to get back on track with my life I want to go to school with the hope of one day attending University. I don't wish my journey on anyone. No one gave me guidance: as a child as a teen as a young adult I was all on my own! and it was real lonely , isolating, extremely frightening. Family? don't really have any. Now remember everyone I'm African American & I receive little to no respect I don't even warrant a speeding car that will slow down. "The person who sang the National Anthem sang the last note so high that no could reach it! That was intentional!" Belize from Tony Kushners play Angels In America. If you've read this far I will leave my email in case you want to leave me a msg. Those that are rude will get deleted immediately. Contact:

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