This Town Is So Bad…..

Today as I was taking my usual stroll to the store for a few things I actually wasn’t feeling so bad.   That is until while waiting at the corner light there was another black couple waiting across the street directly in front of me, (BTW I’m African amercian) I noticed something as I was waiting.  These same two people crossed the opposite street walked half a block then cut across the street jaywalking against the heavy traffic.   Now here is the thing, I don’t know these bozo’s from a can of paint so I already know that it’s them that have the problem, however this speaks volumes about the sorry ass city which I live in.  Even other African americans are hostile.  It’s not just the police & their brutality.   That’s the environment I live in everyone.   At the time of this writing I’m doing research to explore getting some seasonal work OUT OF WASHINGTON state.   I also have my eye on a school out of this state and I won’t mention where that is b/c that’s my secret.

Living where I live is absolutely unbearable no amount of online support sites help b/c a lot of those people who even seek online support are really screwed up & looking for someone to take care of them!  In other words those particular sites that I mention are very much a one way street, those sites are just not therapeutic!

And the morale of this story boys & girls?  MAKE GOALS!  then pray & figure out how they can come to fruition.  This is the lonely shepard taking a bow.   PEACE!


Published by: The Lonely Shepard

Me: I grew up in an extremely abusive & disadvantaged family environment were both parents were really immature & their relationship messy! I was abducted by my Father at age 8 abused physically, mentally, degraded by his 2nd Wife, and I didn't see my Mother again until 4 years later, I had to risk my neck + my life to run off to seek help with the local police & this was way before there was any such laws on the books for child abuse. Think on that awhile. Had learning disabilities all throughout school by the time I graduated I learned nothing, was prepared for nothing out in the World. Think on that. Joined the United States Army right out of High School only reason I did join was that at the time there was an Army recruiter right on the High School campus & he took an interest in me. So I joined. I was really in over my head. But what else could I do? I lived with a single Mom who was emotionally unstable & I had ZERO support from anyone including the school staff + administrators. The military was hard & degrading to me as a woman but I got out with an honorable discharge. More about me: A series of dead end jobs, my mind was totally a mess after I got out of the Army, still had no support not even from the Veterans admin. My journey has been a total nightmare of: trying to find out about myself, learning about myself, how to live as an adult, all with no help. Now after long , and intensive filled journey I'm trying to get back on track with my life I want to go to school with the hope of one day attending University. I don't wish my journey on anyone. No one gave me guidance: as a child as a teen as a young adult I was all on my own! and it was real lonely , isolating, extremely frightening. Family? don't really have any. Now remember everyone I'm African American & I receive little to no respect I don't even warrant a speeding car that will slow down. "The person who sang the National Anthem sang the last note so high that no could reach it! That was intentional!" Belize from Tony Kushners play Angels In America. If you've read this far I will leave my email in case you want to leave me a msg. Those that are rude will get deleted immediately. Contact:

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