Family On The Decline

Where is the last post that I blogged about this topic 2 years ago?  I tried to pull it up on WordPress because I like to read my own blog essays, when I get that dumb message on Word press citing the following: “Oops seems like we can’t find that page”.  Can’t find my page that I typed 2 years ago?  My question is “Well were did it go”?   Is it buried with Jimmy Hoffa?   I’m incensed!  Soooo ,  I will write another blog.   I swear everyone sometimes I feel like what I say just doesn’t matter to anyone else but me.   This page is the only place were I feel that I have a voice!  When I was a little girl I didn’t have one.   Which brings me to the title of this article.    The family today has gone down the toilet.   Down the toilet.

You have Fathers that don’t stick around and what I mean by stick around I mean LEAVING.   And if by chance that the Father is in the house well that isn’t much better because everyone if said Father is working and you never see him that isn’t much better.  Example:  As a child I had a step mother (odious woman that ever lived) who would intentionally send me to bed (7-8PM) so I wouldn’t see him.  In the mornings before I would go to school, while seated at the breakfast table there would be Dad seated slurping his cereal hiding behind a newspaper.  You know I don’t even know if he even knew if I was there at all!  On the weekends when not working Father would be home watching sports were  all else would be tuned out, you could drop the atom bomb around him he would still be watching sports on that damn tv.   Do you know my friends that up until recently I hated every sport!   I like soccer, sometimes baseball but that’s because of the wonderful diversity.   However here in America families are falling apart and it’s the kids that pay the price believe me this I know!  Being raised in a single parent home is really awful I will tell the truth.  Here is why everyone.  Often the Mother will feel overwhelmed & she will blame it on the child, this I know all too well.   Don’t know about some of you but my Mother is mentally unstable she would scream at the top of her lungs, threaten with bodily harm, throw things, throw temper tantrums, scream about the cost of living & do all this to a CHILD!   A message to all you single parents:  Please don’t take out your stress on your child please!  If it gets too much for you then ship the kid off to a boarding school or a military school.   If money is an issue there are scholarships.   Anything is preferable to the instability your giving your child.    Why must the child always pay for the damn parents mistake?   Parents handle your business if you are unable to care for your kids you must let them get emancipated from you so that they can have a chance at a normal stable life.

I sure wish to God I could have had that option of emancipation from my Mother offered to me.  Because all I ever wanted was a stable loving environment in which to grow up in.     To be continued……. 


Published by: The Lonely Shepard

Me: I grew up in an extremely abusive & disadvantaged family environment were both parents were really immature & their relationship messy! I was abducted by my Father at age 8 abused physically, mentally, degraded by his 2nd Wife, and I didn't see my Mother again until 4 years later, I had to risk my neck + my life to run off to seek help with the local police & this was way before there was any such laws on the books for child abuse. Think on that awhile. Had learning disabilities all throughout school by the time I graduated I learned nothing, was prepared for nothing out in the World. Think on that. Joined the United States Army right out of High School only reason I did join was that at the time there was an Army recruiter right on the High School campus & he took an interest in me. So I joined. I was really in over my head. But what else could I do? I lived with a single Mom who was emotionally unstable & I had ZERO support from anyone including the school staff + administrators. The military was hard & degrading to me as a woman but I got out with an honorable discharge. More about me: A series of dead end jobs, my mind was totally a mess after I got out of the Army, still had no support not even from the Veterans admin. My journey has been a total nightmare of: trying to find out about myself, learning about myself, how to live as an adult, all with no help. Now after long , and intensive filled journey I'm trying to get back on track with my life I want to go to school with the hope of one day attending University. I don't wish my journey on anyone. No one gave me guidance: as a child as a teen as a young adult I was all on my own! and it was real lonely , isolating, extremely frightening. Family? don't really have any. Now remember everyone I'm African American & I receive little to no respect I don't even warrant a speeding car that will slow down. "The person who sang the National Anthem sang the last note so high that no could reach it! That was intentional!" Belize from Tony Kushners play Angels In America. If you've read this far I will leave my email in case you want to leave me a msg. Those that are rude will get deleted immediately. Contact:

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