I Left The LGBT For Good!

I was very disillusioned with LGBT community.  I thought most were nice.  They are not.   In the 20+ years I’ve experienced such an abusive bunch of women who seem to want nothing more than to crush the spirit of other women.   It’s dog eat dog betrayal and overall not the healthiest people in the world.   I come out of all that pretty damaged & I need to heal.   I’ve been cursed at, bullied, treated with a lot of disrespect, stalked by a woman I wasn’t friends with nor liked ( twice)who followed me to my apartment 3 times.    I never want anything to do with gay women ever.   I understand how some people in society dislike gay women, they’re not the nicest nor the most sensitive.   I realize what I’m saying is controversial to some, however I don’t care because this is what I’ve experienced.   I must say that I feel free almost at peace with my decision.   I now don’t believe in intimate relationships, same sex marriage, moving in together all set ups for failure.   It’s somewhat ironic to me that within the community there is all this brouhaha over getting respect when the LGBT don’t seem to respect anyone but what they want for themselves.   I know for I used to hang out with some of these women who I thought were friends.    Hypocrisy seems to play into most of the women’s agenda.  Gay women also love to intimidate I have an example: Years ago I was at a bar waiting my turn to play pool, once the women were done me & my friends at the time were set to rack up the balls.  This one woman tried to intimidate me into giving up my turn, I wasn’t having that & I told her to go to hell.  Luckily it did not progress into a fight.  You women out there need to be careful who you try to mess with, some of you could get hurt I don’t mind catching a case when you mess with me. Women also love to gossip about someone they don’t like ,they’re jealous of other women, they love to bully other women, again I ain’t having that so it’s for that reason I won’t have ANYTHING to do with those trifling women there is no love in that community only a lot of hate & hostility.  The gay women are the worst in how they treat other women.  I’ve seen & experienced it all and I’m through!

What a waste of time.   Despite the horrible experiences with the majority of women I’ve met I’m still optimistic but nonetheless I’m mistrustful (with good reason too) of getting close to any woman.   And I’m okay with that, because let me tell you there are a lot of crazy, ill mannered ,and very , very abusive women out there.  I’m not anxious to meet any of them.   Aah women, such a crazy bunch.   So glad I’m single.  I plan on staying that way.   One more thing about some gay women is that when one is attracted to another then the other woman is not aware or perhaps isn’t interested the woman who has the attraction gets all stupid & immature.   Women stop having expectations.   If your attracted to the woman either say hi then if nothing else is happening……it’s a sure sign the woman isn’t interested so go on your way & find someone else.   Being weird won’t get you anywhere!   And knock it off with the damn disrespect YOUR NOT A MAN!   Stop leering, staring, and playing those stupid games and grow up for God’s sake!


Published by: The Lonely Shepard

Me: I grew up in an extremely abusive & disadvantaged family environment were both parents were really immature & their relationship messy! I was abducted by my Father at age 8 abused physically, mentally, degraded by his 2nd Wife, and I didn't see my Mother again until 4 years later, I had to risk my neck + my life to run off to seek help with the local police & this was way before there was any such laws on the books for child abuse. Think on that awhile. Had learning disabilities all throughout school by the time I graduated I learned nothing, was prepared for nothing out in the World. Think on that. Joined the United States Army right out of High School only reason I did join was that at the time there was an Army recruiter right on the High School campus & he took an interest in me. So I joined. I was really in over my head. But what else could I do? I lived with a single Mom who was emotionally unstable & I had ZERO support from anyone including the school staff + administrators. The military was hard & degrading to me as a woman but I got out with an honorable discharge. More about me: A series of dead end jobs, my mind was totally a mess after I got out of the Army, still had no support not even from the Veterans admin. My journey has been a total nightmare of: trying to find out about myself, learning about myself, how to live as an adult, all with no help. Now after long , and intensive filled journey I'm trying to get back on track with my life I want to go to school with the hope of one day attending University. I don't wish my journey on anyone. No one gave me guidance: as a child as a teen as a young adult I was all on my own! and it was real lonely , isolating, extremely frightening. Family? don't really have any. Now remember everyone I'm African American & I receive little to no respect I don't even warrant a speeding car that will slow down. "The person who sang the National Anthem sang the last note so high that no could reach it! That was intentional!" Belize from Tony Kushners play Angels In America. If you've read this far I will leave my email in case you want to leave me a msg. Those that are rude will get deleted immediately. Contact: Yogibeara425@hushmail.com

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