Why Do Clicques Insist Upon Taking Over?

I’ve just about had it with certain groups who think that they can just come to a neighborhood keep anyone from walking down the side walk  just so they can set up a stupid altar for a vigil on public property between the building I live on & the adjoining cluster of townhomes?  

Latest irritant.   A group of young people have decided to just hold a vigil complete with candles that they lit (at first I thought the group was about to commit arson), 3-4 bunches of red roses ( which you give to someone you love like your spouse, boyfriend, or girlfriend) and 2 red bandanas ( I’ll leave that one for you to figure out)  .    I came upon this “scene” by chance yesterday.  Once again the sidewalk was blocked by the cars open doors so I crossed the street.

Basically what left me really scratching my head was why would you hold a vigil between were 2 properties lie?  And by a fire hydrant?  Based on what I know usually a vigil complete with candles usually translates to someone being killed either right on the spot or very near the spot where a person lost his/her life.  I know this because I’ve watched actual crime documentaries .  I’m not happy with what I saw.   I really don’t need to know someone lost their life, I can’t handle when someone I know passes away.   If I could have asked this group of people I would have asked them WHY would you have this out in the open for everyone to see?   Shouldn’t something like this be more private?   Also there was a public park just right across the street complete with picnic benches.

What this told me was that these people just didn’t give a fuck about anyone but themselves.   I don’t think I want to live at an apartment complex riddled with these kind of people.  I have zero tolerance for bullies even dangerous ones.  I’ll have to move when my lease ends.   People like these don’t care, which is fine but when the shit hits the fan & weapons get drawn?   I’d prefer not to be caught in the cross fire.   This whole situation has given me a headache.  Here was the reason given by the group who was responsible for the vigil out behind the building where I live. 

It’s not much but according to the information here is what was told to my property manager the group of people holding this vigil had said that it was someone  they knew who passed awaynearby in the area.    And, that was ALL that was said.    I got basically the same information from a law enforcement source.   The law enforcement source said that there was nothing wrong with holding a vigil,  I beg to differ but that’s my opinion.  Of course anyone with half a brain could see that there was more to the story.      SO what I will do is AVOID like the PLAGUE the back door exit of the building where I live just like it’s diseased, like it’s a contagion because it’s were those people love to hang out & intimidate with their prescence .   Those people I guess can have their little patch of sidewalk…SMH that really belongs to the CITY & not to THEM!    And make my plans.   Everything adds up to a not so great equation.   I may not have been very good at math in school but I sure as hell can see what all of this adds  up to…..DISASTER!  Update: I just had a moment of clarity on the gang problem.   I strongly suspect that what these people were doing in setting up this so called vigil was to convey a message.

That message was:  We run this area.   Because these people run in the shadows having this vigil out in the open sends a big message.   

Women Are Often Ignored In The World.

Tonight as I was house sitting for the weekend I came across a documentary.  It was about a boot camp for young men who get into trouble.  I did not watch it all b/c of the TV computer glitch it was one of those programed TV menu computer things were the app’s fill up causing the program to just disappear off the screen.

Most frustrating.   Anyway, I was annoyed over the preceding message prior to the program.   It was a simple message regarding an A list celebrity who was arrested 8 times but through hard work & displine he was a success.  

First off all that message was only half right as there are other extenuating circumstances which of course were left out.  First the celebrity is a male & as everyone knows males always have preference in the U.S.   The other is that SOMEONE helped this celebrity meaning someone I don’t know whom probably opened some doors for this person .  I’ve been around a long time so I know what I’m talking about.   There are lots of people myself included who as a juvenile ran into lots of trouble with Police I’m overlooked, or when I share my story no one believes me.   I’ve spent many, many times in the back of a police squad car.  No one even bothered to help or mentor me.   With the exception of two police officers who did save my life out of an abusive parental situation everyone else merely wrote me off.     I have no criminal record as an adult.   Now that was hard work & no one gave me any encouragement it was more like discouragement & sometimes it would be accompanied with a fatalistic prophecy along with personal insults.   Of course it was an HBO documentary which is media based anyway so I’m not surprised.   

I also really don’t believe in those teen boot camps either.   I’m of the belief that no matter how young you are you make choices in your life whether good or bad.  I made choices to no go down the wrong path, now I wasn’t perfect but for the most part I hated doing anything illegal or hanging out with people who were providing a deleterious influence .   No one really cared, in fact during the time I was growing up I had the strong feeling that certain adults that were supposedly providing a so called (or no guidance) wanted me to fail.    I get a bit testy even jealous because what I could write a book over the perilous childhood & yes it was fraught with a lot of danger for me as a young child no one I mean no one wanted to be bothered,   I just feel that everyone deserves to tell their story especially if they barely survive it.   And by survive I was almost:


Almost lured by a pimp

Almost shot by my former crazy stepfather during an interrogation

Screamed at by my Mother while she was driving me home I was 13

And more degradation.

I may not be an A list celebrity, I don’t have much, and as a woman who suffers much discrimination, I just wish I could garner just some attention.

As I’ve said earlier in my blog those teen boot camps?  I feel don’t do a damn bit of good.   What does do some good is paying attention to your kids.   It doesn’t take much just tell them that you love them & quit using them, and treating them like adults.     This world is so unfair to women.    I sure won’t sugarcoat it.