All This Hate Confuses Me

Living here in the PNW ( Pacific Northwest)  is difficult & mentally draining!   As a black woman I feel as though I’m constantly at the bottom of the heap in the pecking order of daily life.     That!  is unacceptable.    I feel disrespected.   I’ll tell you why.    There are times that I will be out at a restaurant and other blacks will simply be disrespectful.    I’ll give you an example.

I went to the International District of Chinatown to order some Chinese takeout.   As I’m sitting at the counter waiting for my order another much older black woman walks by and with one of those waving gestures with hand, wrist, forearm she clearly was trying to say something, and that something wasn’t really nice.   It was a swift downward type of gesture that she did.   I was sitting at the end of the counter.   I have no idea WHAT her problem was but it’s typical of the type of ignorant behavior I am on the receiving end of .

See,   I’m okay if you don’t like me just don’t take whatever negative emotion or issue that you might have?   out on me, because then there is a problem.   Now I do the best that I can & I just ignore it but sometimes I just get down right tired of the WAY that I’m treated!   From getting racial slurs screamed at me from a woman who is of another ethnic origin to disrespectful gestures from a miserable old hag   I’m tired of it.   It’s times like this that I’m very glad that I stay to myself!   I just have ZERO tolerance for ignorant / disrespectful behavior.    I so look forward to the day when I can meet that someone special AND move the hell out of KING COUNTY ( it sucks!)  especially southend  were it’s people are so out to lunch crazy among other things.    I’m counting the days!      Last month I’m riding a bus route an awful bus route that was over crowded & small.   A very unattractive man who had those deep creases in his forehead was on his cell phone talking loud for the whole bus to hear & he was standing\ right next to me was so goddamned rude & stupid.    I simply looked up at him because he was LOUD!   You get people that are too stupid to be aware enough to know that you use your INDOOR VOICE,  he did not.   So he is speaking to some other women I guess he got all insecure and he said:

“I don’t give a fuck, that’s why I moved to Washington from Chicago because weed here is legal”.     I guess some woman mentioned how loudmouth he was.    That guy needed his ass kicked off the bus.    I ended up getting off the bus several stops EARLY!   That guy was a total bastard & stupid.    I felt like telling him to take his dumb ass BACK to Chicago.       I have zero tolerance for ignorant & disrespectful, hateful behavior.    I live in an area that doesn’t have the brightest bulbs in the bunch.     Once again I will need to move once my lease ends.   The housing market is tough here and I’m on a few waitlists.    To save my sanity I ride the ferry whenever possible just to get away.      King County sucks!    Gotta go I’m hungry.