Hate Seattle!

Okay so there is a snowstorm and Seattle has lost its mind, its like “what do we do were in a snowstorm”! I haven’t been able to do anything which is frustrating because I want to get to my vocational rehabilitation appointments that will help me get back on the road to being employed! I can’t do that without major help as I suffer from chronic mental illness which has been a barrier my whole life. I have no family support that sucks, so no one to check up on me, sucks double! I’m even deprived of the trash tv during the day ( when I don’t feel like watching the MANY dvds from the library) because there is endless blather on the news about the SNOW!!!!! I have been trying to make myself as happy ( not happening) or have the situation be bearable as possible by watching British TV on dvd. If there is anyone a fan of Midsomer Murders please hit me up & CONTACT ME! I would love to have a conversation. My readers from the U.K. I do get some from time to time contact me. I had a fight with Mom over the phone telling her how unhappy I was when I was a teen living under her roof. Don’t know how it came up I guess I was tired of pretending how everything is alright which nothing is alright with me ( I suffer) then when we first spoke it started with how her neighbors shoveled her stairs (she has many that lead to her car) and she went on & on about how nice that was. I was too depressed & resentful(because I couldn’t go out to take care of my business) then I somehow got on topic about there are no nice people & how I really haven’t experienced enough of it in my life and for any extended length of time. I have had one online friend show me kindness but I wanted more than what she could provide online friendships don’t do it for me, I need physical friendship. I then mentioned how depressed I was as a teen. And I didn’t even bring up how she would scream at me or threaten me with violence I intentionally left that alone & did not go there. As a rule one should never mention to a parent that abused them how sad their kid was because most parents that abuse their kids never admit to it later in life that is if your lucky enough to survive & not land in trouble once your older. I think its called gaslighting (google it) So that ended on a bad note.

That’s it for now. I’ve been living on pasta, instant ramen and cream of wheat. Most unbearable.