I am mad. I don’t have a criminal record, never been to jail or prison. I served my complete enlistment in the military and was discharged with an honorable discharge.
Yet when I returned home I was treated like shit!
Immediately when I arrived back to Seattle, I visited the Worksource employment office and spoke with those useless counselors.
Do you think they helped? No they did not. Basically they were pretty lazy and indifferent. I would talk to them, mention to them what I needed, I would tell them I got out of the military only to be treated like some red headed step child that these cretins didn’t want to be bothered with.
I would go about 3-5 times per week. Basically those counselors at the Worksource would be somewhat apathetic. They would punch in some information on a machine then give me a card with the name of the company & address. I really don’t think that any of those clowns cared about me.
One lady a White lady had said to me ( without much interest) ‘Why don’t you try baking’? However when she said this to me she did not look at me she was looking at her screen in front of her. And guess what? This lady counselor didn’t provide me with a piece of paper about any baking program nor did she suggest any contact person I could speak with. Now thats a lazy bruja!
I will make this statement because I am angry. Actually I have a question a rhetorical one I suppose.
That question is: How come when inmates leave prison they’re given opportunities for job training? When here I never committed a crime I have a clean record but no one even gave a damn to help especially Worksource employment! Even the free culinary job training here in Seattle Farestart ( which ain’t so fair more like UNFAIR) rejected me TWICE for entry into their program. Farestart YOU CAN KISS MY ASS!
Answer racism! This was years ago and little has changed for me. It has been dead end job, after dead end job. Thats right people this Country is a horrible one for a Black woman. And during that time I was :
You do the math.
Now, it seems to me that I have little chance to improve my life. I’ve reached out to a lot of places. However as I type this for all of you to read I may have one option which is Vocational Rehabilitation. But I won’t hold my breath. Everyone to include my former therapist who LEFT has failed me miserably.
I am very marginalized. If you don’t know what that means then go Google it please. But I am a textbook example of that.
And I don’t know what to do.
I just need those prayers I need them. Cause no one cares about me.
No one cares about my feelings, no one cares.
I feel like I am totally F**ked.
I need a friend please.