I loathe Christmas time. I just don’t like all the propaganda surrounding it. And the MAJORITY of people buy into it! Took me years to disengage from the corny Christmas mindset & that includes those corny Christmas songs. However, I LOVE Run DMC the 80’s rap group for those of you not in the know, they had a really cool Christmas song. And Boy’s To Men had a Christmas album out. The rest makes me want to puke!
It’s not just because I am spending it alone, although it would be nice to have that special someone of course I won’t lie. However THAT is difficult to meet a special someone in life.
I don’t like Christmas because of what most people attach it’s meaning to:
PRESENTS and oh my GOD! People love to brag about what they’ve got for Christmas, put on airs, act pretentious. Example: “Oh Susie Richard gave me the most beautiful watch!
So help me God, when I have the money I will gift myself something fabulous from none other than Tiffany’s OR Neiman Marcus for Christmas. If I fall in love same thing. I have the determination of Scarlett O’Hara from Gone With The Wind after her entire hometown went down in FLAMES! She made that vow atop a hill or something! And she said it as a way NOT to give up or give in to DEFEAT!
A Christmas tree
But mostly PRESENTS!
Really? I’ve had to really humble myself for many, many, many years! And most of you out there while your spending this day with friends, family actually FORGET that there are those of us who actually come from not so great families. Families that are toxic, have psychiatric problems, health problems, aren’t emotionally healthy. All this rings true with me which is why I spend these so called holidays alone.
I actually have my Mother left but she is married to her Husband who is miserable & mean. Enough said on that!
Unfortunately God hasn’t smiled upon me to put in my life an EMOTIONALLY HEALTHY, attractive someone. Just hasn’t happened I don’t attract healthy types meaning EMOTIONALLY healthy ones who have actually GROWN UP! Matured at least in some ways.
Also for those of you who have both of your parents I mean your ACTUAL PARENTS who are perhaps still together & your able to celebrate Christmas with please count your blessings! My Father passed away in 2007.
I have brothers & sisters but guess what? we all have different Mothers due to my Fathers multiple marriages. They don’t believe in keeping in touch either despite my efforts to reach out. Some of my brothers are on the selfish side, are in jail, or some have had some substance abuse issues. My sisters I have no idea how I would be able to get in touch with any of them.
However, I hope that they are all well. Hope that my brothers aren’t in jail.
Let me say, that this is the VERY FIRST YEAR which I’ve not been DEPRESSED everyone! THAT is the best Christmas gift! Going through the holidays & all alone isn’t something that is easy at all! It is HELL!
IT’S A BITCH! I’ve gone through several years of this. And I don’t know how I got through it. Most of them I slept through it never getting out of bed except to go to the bathroom. I wouldn’t even get up to eat. Most people don’t make it! I think you all know what I mean.
This is for my Brothers & Sisters going it alone for the holiday season please don’t give up!
Ways to get through it:
Listen to your favorite CD’s or albums
Cook a meal! I’ve found cooking to be so therapeutic AND you can watch cooking tutorials there are many on YouTube channel. Because Brothers & Sisters it’s how I’m even able to cook ANYTHING!
I’m roasting a chicken something I learned off the channel among other things. My tastes run to the ethnic side and for the first time ever I’ve learned how to cook collard greens ( and the correct way).
Please stay strong all my solo friends going through the holiday I know that its hard but as the saying goes:
“This Too Shall Pass” And its really true.
I would recommend comedy, any show that is your favorite. Everyone has a favorite . Stream off of Amazon.com.
For example here is what I plan to watch on Christmas:
Speed Racer ( On the Motor Trend channel Amazon)
Meet The Browns ( and yes it’s actually pretty good season one anyway)
Murdoch Mysteries
Ken Burns History of Jazz
This is what I like. Don’t listen to anything negative inside your head get some much needed distraction. Something positive keep on keeping on as the saying goes!
This time of year does suck! And lastly even if you don’t want to , pray.
Like Scarlett O’Hara had said in Gone With The Wind? “I will think about that tomorrow”. “Tomorrow is another day”.
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